recapped.

January:

Senior year is almost over. I'm excited and scared. My pap goes into the hospital for blood in his stool. My mom starts to talk to her mom again. My real grandmother has breast cancer, I find out. No big. I've never met her. My Nana has always been my grandmother. No big deal.

February:

Trip to Florida with Mom's side of the family. I'm living with mom. During the trip, my Pap dies. My mom's mom gets sicker and sicker. My Nana still doesn't walk. My pappy gets laid off. Funeral number one. My great Aunt dies. A friend of the family dies. I dont make it to either funeral.

March:

My mom's real mom dies. Jenn and I are drifting apart. Cindy joins the crowd and the duo becomes a trio. Funeral number two.

April:

Chris dies. Jenn and I drift further apart. Funeral number three. Mom kicks me out in a drunken rage, then the next day lets me back in.

May:

Senior year is coming to a close. Jenn and I drift even further apart. Cindy and I become closer. My heart is hardening. Prom with Jenn. I start to think things are going to be okay.

June:

Graduation. Jenn and I stop speaking entirely. No huge blowout. Just a flicker, and we're done. No words. Just action. Cindy and I go to New York. Meet Metro Station. See a private show. I move to Somerset PA. Work at Wendys. Hate it.

July:

Mom drinks a lot. And accuses me of a lot of nasty shit that I havn't done. I pick up my shit and move back in with Dad and Karen. Start search for new job.

August:

Start to talk to Amanda. Get job at Kohls. (not in that order, but I'm too lazy to backspace and fix it. But yes, we started to talk at the end of August.) My dog gets sicker. Still not speaking to Jenn. Not writing. Working. Talking to Amanda.

September:

I turn 18. My mom gets me a giftcard to starbucks and my dad gets me nothing. I confess my feelings for Amanda. I meet Lexi. Manda and I are getting more serious. Jenn and I talk a little, but let it go. Amanda and I have a blow out and I get even more emo and do some stupid shit. Lex asks me out and I say yes. (I think.) Little yellow car show starts.

October:

Jenn turns 19. Lex and I stop things. Amanda and I start things up again. We kind of ignore that block in between that we weren't together.

November:

I hate my job. I want a new life. Emo period. I love her. I love her. I can't remember what happened here. New car.

December:

Sam dies. No funeral. Christmas. Giftcard from dad and KAren.

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